Uncertainties

There are so many uncertainties in life....

I am confused, perplexed, not knowing what is best for me. Should I push ahead and continue with my 3-week summer placement in a local school or should I return back to India first? The answer to this question is not even within my control due to the complications and restrictions of my air ticket/ Indian visa/family celebration.

Why is life so complicated and uncertain? I really thought I will be able to complete this placement but now things are shaky and rocky. In fact, I was really happy,overjoyed when I received news that I was selected for this placement as chances were quite slim being a foreigner, let alone a first year!

I had so many goals and objectives I wanted to achieve in the three weeks! I really wanted to improve myself in the areas of public speaking and communication; being confident to teach, explain and present in front of a group of around 30 students without any feeling of nervousness. I wanted to experience life working in a local school, the challenges of working with different people with different character and attitudes. I believed that embarking on this journey will really add a new dimension in my life....something different and new; a real hands-on experience.

But are these just distant dreams of the future now? I myself am not sure ...Only God knows. Perhaps this placement is not for me. Though it is my desire to complete this placement, humbly I submit to God and ask for His will to be done and not mine. It may be painful at first but as time goes by, I believe God will heal and provide me with even better opportunities!

Jeremiah 29.11-14
"For I know the plans I have for you ,'says the Lord.' They are plans for good and not for disaster , to give you a future and a hope. In those days, when you pray, I will listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me. I will be found by you,' says the Lord..."